to all my dearest blog readers,
i had change my blog to http://lovesfioncy.blogspot.com..
you all are welcome to view my blog...
see you all there!!
see you all there!!
to all my blog readers...
i'm changing my blog to blogspot..
it is in progresss..
though i love vox lots but lots of people complain to me that it take a long time to load..
so i had decided to change it to blogspot..
but right now i am in australia..
kind of busy to update it..
i will update lots of post when i am back..
will post the new blogspot url here soon..
thanks for reading my blog..
almost 20 years been staying in the world..
i realise that i actually had did many things that i felt regret..
i try to make myself feel better by thinking on the bright side..
but sometimes things just wont be perfect and as you thought of..
sometimes i really wonder why did make such decision at that time..
or is it fated for me to do so ??
furthermore, i dont understand myself..
i want things to be that way but i will do it the other way round..
besides, my emotions will make me think in lots of way..
especially those that bring me lots of headache and pain..
healing from all those hurts and regrets took me lots of time..
till now, pain in my heart are there though they are just scars..
all these has given the mistakes to carry the main role..
those mistakes had messed my life and no one to blame about it..
i feel so wrong over those actions and words..
wondering the purpose of acting and saying so..
it is complicated and no one can ever explain to me..
being easily understand is just my physical...
the inner soul of me having lots of word that can never speak out...
burden of secrets could be too tough for me to share...
i wish i could change everything that happened in the past...
i feel sorry to myself and those that i hurt..
could never denied that what goes around comes around..
but why my life always end up with that conclusion?
i wish i could make my dreams come true..
at least part of it..
my curiosity bring me lots of answer for questions that are in my mind..
though most of the answers isnt those that i want,
i just wish to have an answer...
not hoping for any answer to be hidden..
i will be able to accept the truth...
why? why? why?
keeping those truth though i had put effort finding it out..
when can i find out all those answer that i need??
all of you is keeping it from me..
knowing myself weak in these stuff but at least
knowing the truth will satisfy me..
no guilt, no curiosity, no hatred, no annoyance..
i realise that i actually had did many things that i felt regret..
i try to make myself feel better by thinking on the bright side..
but sometimes things just wont be perfect and as you thought of..
sometimes i really wonder why did make such decision at that time..
or is it fated for me to do so ??
furthermore, i dont understand myself..
i want things to be that way but i will do it the other way round..
besides, my emotions will make me think in lots of way..
especially those that bring me lots of headache and pain..
healing from all those hurts and regrets took me lots of time..
till now, pain in my heart are there though they are just scars..
all these has given the mistakes to carry the main role..
those mistakes had messed my life and no one to blame about it..
i feel so wrong over those actions and words..
wondering the purpose of acting and saying so..
it is complicated and no one can ever explain to me..
being easily understand is just my physical...
the inner soul of me having lots of word that can never speak out...
burden of secrets could be too tough for me to share...
i wish i could change everything that happened in the past...
i feel sorry to myself and those that i hurt..
could never denied that what goes around comes around..
but why my life always end up with that conclusion?
i wish i could make my dreams come true..
at least part of it..
my curiosity bring me lots of answer for questions that are in my mind..
though most of the answers isnt those that i want,
i just wish to have an answer...
not hoping for any answer to be hidden..
i will be able to accept the truth...
why? why? why?
keeping those truth though i had put effort finding it out..
when can i find out all those answer that i need??
all of you is keeping it from me..
knowing myself weak in these stuff but at least
knowing the truth will satisfy me..
no guilt, no curiosity, no hatred, no annoyance..
friday, saturday & sunday ~ 17th,18th &19th April
tire tire tire!!
tire tire tire!!
my feet are pain!!!!
three days of PC fair at Pisa kills me..
i meet hundreds of different kind of people there
including colleagues, customers and friends...
however, this time the sales aren't that good..
standing for 12 hours a day...
selling cameras and running from one booth to another..
selling cameras and running from one booth to another..
therefore after work, without wasting much time
i go to bed and hug my teddy...
is time to have a sweet dream..
is time to have a sweet dream..
i didnt online for 6 days already because of my tireness..
i feel that i am lost.. sigh!
monday & tuesday ~ 20th & 21st April
i visited my little cute NIcole girl..
she is getting smarter...
right now, she is able to recognise shapes and colors..
however, she no longer like Bunny...
she is with her Teddy Bear now..
anyhow, she is waiting for me to bring her to Queensbay...
this week i'll try to spend most of my time with her
because is been months yet she still call me JOEI...
it's my cousin's name.. sigh!!!
little Nicole, when can i actually remembers my name? sob!!
i love her so much even more than cousins..
i just cant explain why,,
maybe i saw her since she is one month old until now..
she is growing from day to day..
and i feel that i'm getting older from day to day..
wednesday ~ 22nd April
woke up at 9 in the morning..
prepare myself and went to Samsung at Northam tower..
sleepy and tire waiting for the queue..
yeppie!! by 12.10 is my turn to walk in for interview..
right after the interview, i joined the training..
but i still unable to know whether am i getting the job..
sigh!! i need to attend another training next tuesday night..
i really hope that i get the job because it has good pay..
though salary is my first concern..
at the same time, i get to learn and gain more experience..
by the way, i'm looking forward to join flower arrangement course..
i want to finish the course and work in the florist shop..
but money is a matter again and time consuming.. sigh!!
when am i going to continue my degree
and where am i going... everything is unplanned!!!!!
let's blog about my day..
from 12am till 9pm of 14th April..
on the 14th midnight, i was at home playing facebook..
but at about 1 something,
debra and cy ask me out...
hmmmm.. after we discussed,
i decided to go out with them...
because i had never leave my house at 2 in the morning
and is been quite some time did not go out till early in the morning...
maybe i should say that i never start my outing at 2 something in the morning..
furthermore, at the time, debra and i were feeling emo over someone..
so, i took my bath and drove out to fetch debra..
after that, we went to fetch cy..
then , we went to eat at mamak store..
what is fun about the night is...
we watched 學警狙擊.EU as our activity..
we even watched it in the car..
it is because we couldn't think of what else to do and where to go..
and the drama is tempting us..
after our supper, we went to greenlane MCD..
both of them ate sundae chocolate..
we enjoyed the drama till 5 in the morning..
i dropped both of them home and reached home at 5 something..
i straight went to bed because it was very tire..
i woke up at 9 something the next morning..
then, i police station with my aunt to settle some stuff..
when i was back from police station..
i realised that one of my fish has left me..
omg!!!!! oh gosh!!!
i had three fish which are
red, blue and white which is my favourite...
i bought them back 2 weeks ago..
unfortunately,the dead fish was my favourite one...
i was sad over it..
the 3 fishes are the only living thing in my house
that could accompany me everyday..
at 12pm, i went to fetch janice..
we went to meet Debra, Su-lyn, Deborah, Chin Yee and Kean Chiew..
they are at KDU waiting for us..
later, we went to Sushi King for lunch as
Sushi King is having promotion week
whereby one plate of sushi only costs RM2..
after lunch, we went to Redbox..
is been a month i didnt go Redbox..
we sang lots of song including chinese and english..
we had lots of fun and great moment..
at 7pm, we left Gurney and i dropped cy back home..
i had a nap after all these..
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from 12am till 9pm of 14th April..
on the 14th midnight, i was at home playing facebook..
but at about 1 something,
debra and cy ask me out...
hmmmm.. after we discussed,
i decided to go out with them...
because i had never leave my house at 2 in the morning
and is been quite some time did not go out till early in the morning...
maybe i should say that i never start my outing at 2 something in the morning..
furthermore, at the time,
so, i took my bath and drove out to fetch debra..
after that, we went to fetch cy..
then , we went to eat at mamak store..
what is fun about the night is...
we watched 學警狙擊.EU as our activity..
we even watched it in the car..
it is because we couldn't think of what else to do and where to go..
and the drama is tempting us..
after our supper, we went to greenlane MCD..
both of them ate sundae chocolate..
we enjoyed the drama till 5 in the morning..
i dropped both of them home and reached home at 5 something..
i straight went to bed because it was very tire..
i woke up at 9 something the next morning..
then, i police station with my aunt to settle some stuff..
when i was back from police station..
i realised that one of my fish has left me..
omg!!!!! oh gosh!!!
i had three fish which are
red, blue and white which is my favourite...
i bought them back 2 weeks ago..
unfortunately,
i was sad over it..
the 3 fishes are the only living thing in my house
that could accompany me everyday..
at 12pm, i went to fetch janice..
we went to meet Debra, Su-lyn, Deborah, Chin Yee and Kean Chiew..
they are at KDU waiting for us..
later, we went to Sushi King for lunch as
Sushi King is having promotion week
whereby one plate of sushi only costs RM2..
after lunch, we went to Redbox..
is been a month i didnt go Redbox..
we sang lots of song including chinese and english..
we had lots of fun and great moment..
at 7pm, we left Gurney and i dropped cy back home..
i had a nap after all these..
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since i went redbox, i found out a song
that could define debra's and mine condition..
though the song is an old chinese song,
the lyrics is very meaningful..
the title of the song is 心太软。。
the most meaningful phrase that could be applicable to everyone is
相爱总是简单 相处太难
--== 心太软 ==-- 任贤齐 你总是心太软 心太软 独自一个人流泪到天亮 你无怨无悔地爱着那个人 我知道你根本没那么坚强 你总是心太软 心太软 把所有问题都自己扛 相爱总是简单 相处太难 不是你的就别再勉强 夜深了你还不想睡 你还在想着他吗 你这样痴情到底累不累 明知他不会回来安慰 只不过想好好爱一个人 可惜他无法给你满分 多余的牺牲他不懂心疼 你应该不会只想做个好人 喔，算了吧 就这样忘了吧 该放就放 再想也没有用 傻傻等待 他也不会回来 你总该为自己想想未来 |
after the trip to Ipoh..
i went Genting Highlands with my college mates..
it was a great trip because i wanted to go there long time ago..
unfortunately, when we reached, it was raining
but glad that the rain stop right after we checked in our hotel room..
we play, eat, laugh and joke non stop...
i wish to have more trips coming up in future..
however, i may be leaving penang to further my studies..
and before all those i'm going to start work..
is very bore at home and is a waste of time...
let the pictures to do the talking...
Here is the analysis about myself:
- You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
- You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
- You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
- Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
- Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
Here is the analysis for my love style:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.Here is the analysis about my personality:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
Here is the analysis about my house drawing:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it.You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well.
You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. You are an ambitious person.When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside.
You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love.
It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.last weekends was great!!
it was 8 in the morning..
i woke up and prepare myself while
waiting for yehuey and carolyne to get ready themselves..
then, we drove to cy's house and meet up with andrew, weiping and phoebe..
at around 10, we drove down to Ipoh..
we had our lunch and went to LOST WORLD OF TAMBUN..
i'm glad that it was cloudy day..
i hate sunlight because i dont want get darker..
we play till 5 something..
then we drove to jusco to meet up with
khaiseang,his gf, kenny and his friend...
and at the same time, phoebe left us to go to her granny's birthday..
we ate some light food while waiting for khaiseang and his gang to play bowling..
later, we went dinner at Ipoh town..
the dinner was delicious but kind of expensive..
after that, we walk around the night market..
and at 9 something, we drove back to Penang..
i was a tiring day but fun!!!
yeppie!! horraaayy!! weeee!!!
i'm so happy..
at last i finish my diploma at KDU..
therefore, i'm going to have my rest now..
wondering what am i going to do these days..anyhow, i do feel sad too because
i will miss the moments in KDU
especially all my college mates..
i wonder when will we meet again after this..
besides that, i do love certain lecturers..
they are great and friendly..
i love the way they teach that i could gain lots of knowledge from them..
anyway, i'm so lazy to continue my degree for the time being..
but i should not waste my time..
sigh!! dont know where should i take my degree..
i still cant decide and havent find information about it yet..
i will do it soon.. during this moment, i will enjoy my life in penang..
because i'm sure that i'm furthering my study...
is been quite sometimes i didnt update my blog..
actually nothing much has happen recently..
but there are a few special events..
one of them is my best friend, DEBRA's birthday...
it was on 24th February..
we went to Ferringhi Garden.. is a restaurant with nice environment..
besides that, i went round Penang island..
it was cool and fun but too bad it was raining on that day..
other than all those, i went hiking and jogging..
trying to lead a healthy life and at the same time slimming down..
furthermore, i do went out with friends a lot lately..
we went to redbox, dinner, supper and chatting at cafe..
i cant wait to go for holidays..
i feel so great and wonderful because
i will be going to Australia on May with my darling, ye-huey..
besides that, i might be going Taiwan with parents on April..
i'm going to make my holidays a memorable one..
in Malaysia, i will be going Ipoh and Genting with friends..
and of course will be going back to KL for some time
to stay with my parents and accompany them for some shopping..
anyhow, all these need money... MONEY!!!
so i need to save lots these days..
i plan to work soon and hopefully i could..
i am so choosy that i will only work for those job that i am interested.. sigh!!
i'm an OCTOBER baby :
loves to chat..
love those who loves them back..
loves to take things at the centre..
inner and physical beauty..
lies but doesnt pretend..
gets angry often..
treat friends importantly..
always love making friends..
brave and fearless..
easily get hurts but easily recovers..
undecisive and sensitive..
daydreamer and opinionated..
does not care to control emotions..
unpredictable and extremely smart..
loves to chat..
love those who loves them back..
loves to take things at the centre..
inner and physical beauty..
lies but doesnt pretend..
gets angry often..
treat friends importantly..
always love making friends..
brave and fearless..
easily get hurts but easily recovers..
undecisive and sensitive..
daydreamer and opinionated..
does not care to control emotions..
unpredictable and extremely smart..
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